"East to West" by Casting Crowns

God's love is so amazing...even tho I don't deserve it. Time and time again I stumble and fall and still He forgives me when I call on His name in repentance.

Here I am Lord,
And I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind,
Keeps me awake tonight

I know you cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before you now as,
As though I've never sinned
But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

Jesus can you show me
Just how far the east is from the west
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest,
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other.


I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
And time and time again your truth is drowned out
By the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away,
From you leaving me this way


Jesus can you show me,
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
'cause you know
Just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other.


I know you've washed me white,
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through,
To get me through this night
Can’t live by what I feel
But by the Truth your work reveals,
I'm not holding on to you
But you're holding on to me,
You’re holding on to me

Jesus you know
Just how far the East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been,
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
'cause you know just how far the East is form the West,
From one scarred hand to the other.

Just how far
The east is from the west

From one scarred hand to the other

my college roommates...

I realized that I never posted anything on here about my roommates my freshman year of college. OK actually I never posted anything on here about my freshman year lol...so here it is: this post is dedicated to the best room on campus *****GIBBS 108*****

Sharon Ledbetter (Miller) ... our room leader

Becky Paez ... our "mama"

Tamara Shepherd ... our "crazy one" lol

We had alot of fun together =] I loved them all so much!

just to clarify...

ok, so that last entry...the amazing poem I found...I found it on my friend's blog and fell in love with it so I just copied it. Not knowing that it was written by none other than my amazing friend and former roommate Sarah Kinsey. So let's give credit to where credit is due...

I found this amazing poem on the internet...written by Sarah Kinsey.

Sarah: You're the greatest! I miss you so much...I miss our late night talks and our messy room. I miss listening to Taylor Swift and Wicked and your choir CDs. I miss making up excuses to not go to youth group (not like I ever did that lol) I miss making fun of you for wearing so many layers when it wasn't even cold. Thanks for being my friend!!! Love ya girl <3>

amazing poem that I found...

I'm ready to give my heart away,
but it's not mine to give.
My heart is in my Savior's hands
for it's for Him I live.

I dance with Him,
my heart's first love.
He holds me in His arms.
I know His love is pure and true
and so, the dance goes on.

I stumble, yet He pulls me close,
His eyes locked on my face.
"I don't deserve your love,"I say.
"Yes. But that, my daughter, is grace."

Amazing grace. I smile and think
how you love a wretch like me.
Your love so pure and constant,
it's an amazing thing indeed.

For though your love remains so strong,
my heart is troubled still.

I long for "true love" here on earth
to be smitten and swept off my feet.
To dance beneath the moonlit sky
and give my heart away for keeps.

Why do I long for such a love,
for a man so brave and strong?
The very Maker of the universe gave up His life for me.
That is the ultimate love song.

So Lord, I ask and pray this day,
that You would keep my heart.
Hold it, satisfy it, nourish it
and keep it safe from harm.

I choose to dance with You, my Love
until the day YOU choose
to share my heart with the man of my dreams
and I'll share his heart with You.

summer...college...getting old...

I guess it's been awhile since I've been on here, so let me catch you up on my life.

The last week of June was KOSMOS (that big mission conference in Costa Rica). My fellow GAPpers and I were translators for the groups and it was awesome! Thursday night of that week we had the GAP Year 08 graduation. It was so sad to see it all end. Saying goodbye to my Costa Rican family was quite possibly one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. My time in Costa Rica was absolutely wonderful and I learned so much. I just thank God for the opportunity to go there.

I got home to beautiful SD on July 1st. It was so good to see my family again! I

worked alot at Arby's and Rondee's Campground but also got to spend some quality time with my family. My sister from NC came out for the rodeo so we had a small family reunion that weekend. It was alot of fun! The first week of August was our church's Bible school. I think about 100 kids were registered. Praise the LORD! The missionary story this year was CT Studd. It was fun to act out and the kids loved it!

That brings us up to... SEPTEMBER: (well actually August 25th lol) Natalie, Nehemiah, and I drove out to college from SD on Aug 25th. We got to go to our friends' ranch in NE the first night out and ride horses for several hours. Talk about fun! Then we met up with some friends in Arizona and drove the rest of the way to school and got here Thurs around 2:30AM. It was a wonderful trip...with no vehicle problems at all! Avon (my future sis-in-law) and I stayed with Nicole at her apartment until Monday Sept 1st when the dorms opened. The first official week of school was registration and settling into the dorms. The preaching that week was absolutely phenomenal! But my favorite part of the week tho was definitely when the WHOLE college (all 920 students + faculty) went to the LA Dodgers game. It was so awesome!!!Life is settling down now...classes are good. and I get to take Piano lessons! yeah!!! and I'm in the choir which I just LOVE! My weekend ministry is working in a 5yr Spanish Sunday School class. The kids are just absolutely adorable :) God is still working in my life and I'm excited to see what all He has in store for me.
Jeremiah 29:11

Father's Day

I love you, dad ~ Happy Father's Day!

Goodly Heritage

I may not have riches as some others may

But I have a mother who knows how to pray

And maybe there's some things I've missed in my youth

But I have a father who stands for the truth

Chorus:

I have a goodly heritage

I'm blessed with things you can't see

I have a goodly heritage

And that is worth far more to me

And if in the future, my parents pass on,

To dwell in that City we've come to call Home

They may not leave me the goods of this world

But I have accepted their God and His Word